So it seems you can't go anywhere lately without seeing CBD products..... at least where I live. When marijuana became legal in Michigan, the township that I live next to (and work in) had a huge controversy over officials approving many, many licenses to set up shop (and get a kickback). We are now left with streets lined with dispensary after dispensary as well as one vape shop after another popping up. Not only that, but I was seeing signs for CBD at gas stations, video stores (yes, they are still around), as well as being advertised in coffees, teas, etc...... I'm going to be really honest here and say that I was sneering like Clint Eastwood in "Gran Torino" - feeling so "old" and worried about the decline of our society. I have strong feelings about smoking and recreational drugs BUT I will say now I am educated on what CBD is and what it does.
Before I get into that though, let me tell you the how or why I educated myself. I've touched on it from time to time here...... the mid-life woes I am going through. All of my friends are going through it too and I don't know what I'd do without them. We compare notes constantly and talk about what works or doesn't work for us. The best way I can describe it is that for the past few years I just haven't felt like myself. Trying to juggle a marriage, 2 kids, work, a household, friends, etc.... all the while having bouts of anxiety and/or depression that I never had before. Hormones and body changes, aches and pains, insomnia, no sex drive, anger (just feeling annoyed or upset all the time), forgetfulness, hmmmm what else can I add to that lovely list. Common sense stuff like eating well, partaking in physical activity and getting enough rest would help, but never completely made all my ailments go away. When I complained to my OB at my yearly appointment, he was quick to brush me off with an anti-depression script (men, go figure!). Again, personal preference here as I stated before with being against smoking and drugs..... I am not keen on taking prescription medications. When I went into the hospital to have my boys and they asked what I was taking, it was almost a state of shock when I said "nothing" or when I declined sleeping pills or any pain management to give birth. I held onto that Paxil script for about a year before I finally got desperate and took them. Just as I suspected, I DID NOT like how I felt. Should I have tried a different dosage or brand and given it more of a chance? Maybe. Now, I will say I am not a die hard "all natural" person.... I'll stuff a bunch of preserved food in my mouth even though I know it's not good for me. Wine? Yes. Meds? No. Isn't it weird what we are okay with and not okay with?
Feeling frustrated and not knowing what to do next...... as we all know making and going to doctor appointments is time consuming, can be expensive depending on what insurance covers, and I was overwhelmed in wondering where I should start with my wide array of ailments. Should I find a new OBGYN? Should I go to a therapist? Could a general practitioner help? The thought of going to a bunch of different doctors and/or trying a variety of medications until something worked was daunting. Like, I'd almost rather feel shitty than go through all that. Hell, I've dealt with a lot of things in my life, I'll just push through this too (as women do, right)! Then I started seeing some women talking about CBD - a particular company to be exact - and I was intrigued. Once I took a look at Equilibria, I decided to take a chance! When you see a product that "checks all your boxes" it is exciting.
I started out with the Daily Drops and Softgels. After being on the recommended dosage (one dropper of oil at bedtime, one softgel in the morning) for at least a week, you have a 1 on 1 consultation with a dosage specialist to adjust where needed. I was about 3 weeks in (got a good feel for it) before having my call with them. Taking the dropper of oil at night.... best sleep!!! If I woke up it was easy for me to fall asleep again. Taking the softgel in the morning made my days pretty tolerable but once I talked to Aimee we decided on me taking another softgel in the afternoon to have better evenings. While consistency is key (taking it daily) it's nice to know that you can always adjust here and there. For instance, if I am in a situation that is making me anxious, I can take a dropper of oil (since it is faster acting than the softgel) and it will help.
What made me choose Equilibria is that it is a women owned company focusing on women's needs. They are based in Chicago (yeah!) and I can trust I will be getting a quality product. You can reach out to them for support at any time. You can read testimony after testimony of all ages/ailments that they have helped. Take a look at their FAQ's page to learn all about the organic farm they use for their full spectrum products. In other words, if you are going to try CBD for yourself, do your research and don't buy it from a gas station!
They are teasing some new products for the holidays so I am excited to see what they are. Besides the oil and softgels they also have a topical cream which I've heard is very good and which I will probably try. This..... this right now is improving my life. One thing I've learned about this phase of life is that it is always changing and most likely I will have to adjust as things come up. For now though, this is a good answer!